“My own thoughts scare me”
Its one of those cliche phrases that you read on message boards but cant quite comprehend what they mean. But its not the thoughts that scare you its the relization of just how far you’ve fallen. The worry that you can’t purge because you waited too long isn’t what scares you. Its the realization that you and your own stomach are in a race between whether it can digest the food faster than you can purge. How can you be fighting against you over something as natural as digestion?